Two Moms.

So I started sharing childhood stories with my husband tonight before bed. It started out with funny haha stories, and inevitably, my mom's death came up. I started thinking about her and just wondering about her, and I realized just how much I miss her. I have an absolutely outstanding "step"mom and am so grateful to my Daddy-God for giving her to me. I could never ask for anything more. Nevertheless, there are nights, like tonight where I start thinking about my Mami Brenda and I plain miss her. I really mostly miss the fact of getting to know her. Really stinks. I haven't thought of Mami Brenda with that level of tenderness for a long time... Sigh. No point to this blog. I was just missing my mama and wanted to share...

Psalm 141

"O Lord, I call upon You; hasten to me! Give ear to my voice when I call to You! May my prayer be counted as incense before You; the lifting of my hands as the evening offering. Set a guard O Lord, over my mouth; keep watch over the door of my lips. Do not incline my heart to any evil thing, to practice deeds of wickedness with men who do iniquity; and do not let me eat of their delicacies... For my eyes are toward You, O God, the Lord; in You I take refuge; do not leave me defenseless." (Psalms 141:1-4, 8)

You know the prayers of my heart and the desires that lie therein Holy Spirit. Have Your way...

Midnight Intercession

I find myself up... (again!) Super early. Part of it is that I have a gorgeous two month old baby who needs her mama, though she never ever wakes up twice in the middle of the night to eat. The other part of it is that I believe the Lord ordained me to get up an pray for an hour. Right smack in the middle of the night. I began praying for all kinda of things. I began praying for human trafficking victims, and asked the Lord to release justice on behalf of the victims oppressed, then I prayed for friends & a few family members. Then the Lord began to grant me a spirit of intercession, praying against this upcoming Halloween. Now, I've never ever been a fan of Halloween (ever!) and I'm praying to the Lord that both my daughters are reared the same way. But I began to speak against the powers of Halloween, and all that jazz. Though I was whispering after having fed my sweet girl, it was a powerful time of intercession and I believe the Lord will have me pray for that again and again, until Halloween is over! (Can I just please make a request Lord and may it be at a more convenient time? Say six am, maybe? Nevertheless, Your will be done, not mine) I encourage you God fearing Christians out there to seriously spend some time in prayer over the youth & overall purity and covering of your city. I'd even say to go as far as speak to your local church about it and see if they'll not hold a prayer meeting for it. This is a serious thing, and a holiday that is anything but holy. Members of the occult delight in this day and use it to truly seek out evil and release demonic principalities over our youth. And with things like HHN at Universal and such, you better believe evil is running rampant and people are opening the doors to them like good ladies and gentlemen. If you live in Orlando, and are stirred to pray on Halloween know that the Orlando House of Prayer will be hosting a six hour prayer meeting on Halloween. So come, stand for righteousness.

PS. Kairos Forerunners has a great post on the truth about Halloween. Go check it out!

Dreams?! Ugh...

Ugh!

Another disturbing dream. Yanooo, I resent the fact that other friends are dreaming of spewing gold and prophetic destinies, and I get rats and tardiness. :-/

Am I missing it that badly Lord?

Ugh. Give me a moment. I need to go wrestle like Jacob. >:-o

A heart for human trafficking.

"The Lord performs righteous deeds and judgements for all who are oppressed." -Psalm 103:6

I read that Scripture and think so much of human trafficking victims. Talk about being oppressed, daily. Or should I say nightly. Human trafficking is one social issue that weighs heavily upon my heart. I've had so many dreams in which Caleb and I go to rescue some of these girls and get them out of the hell-hole they've wasted away in. Not by choice, of course. Man, it seriously breaks my heart to know that slaves still exist in our day. And that the mass of men would rather turn their head for the sake of personal comfort, than to confront this issue dead on. Oh God, please raise up our family to be defenders of freedom, to be the gift from God of justice! God, do what only You can do and cause us to move in this direction for Your Word's sake. Please Lord, perform righteous deeds on behalf and judgementsnon behalf of the oppressed. Send this family, we'll go.

Studying 1 Corinthians 13

Yesterday's message at Church touched me a lot. Not only because it was specifically designed for someone near and dear to my heart, but because reminded me that He allows trials in our life to expose our heart. Ha, yeah I was failing that test miserably. I have found that what's in my heart is dark, selfish and wavering. It is also proud and insecure. So, I begun to dig deep into my Word to pray that He will change my heart first, and then the heart of those near and dear to me. I began digging deep into 1 Corinthians 13:4-7, the chapter on love. I started on James, went to 1 Peter and ended up in 1 Corinthians. It was a beautifully designed path the Lord took me on. Well, I wanted to share my findings. I'm stuck on 1 Corinthians 13:4. "Love is patient, love is kind." When looking in my concordance the Greek word for patient and kind (because I'm an absolute nerd and love words and their true meanings), it brought conviction in my heart and I've been praying these characteristics into my heart the last 24 hours. Here is what I found:

-patient: makrothymeo: to be of long spirit, not to lose heart. to persevere patiently and bravely in enduring misfortunes. to be patient in bearing the offenses of others. to be mild (which is defined as humble in spirit and manner) and slow in avenging. slow to anger, slow to punish.
-kind: chresteumoai: to show oneself mild (which is defined as humble in spirit and manner), use kindness.

I would just like to say 100% of divorces are caused by the lack of these two characteristics.

Reflections admist trials

The mercies of God are outstanding. I apologize I have been minutely MIA for a couple of days (okay, maybe a week or so). Things have been quite turbulent and in the day to day, I have put blogging on the back-burner. But, I'm back and with a new found understanding for the things which God allows us to endure. It is incredible to me how wrapped up in self we can truly be... Sometimes when the Lord reveals to us circumstances or the heart of another, or the things that will or can come, we become absorbed with ourselves and what exactly it is that we can do to fix it. We decide to spend our entire being poured out into fixing whatever we feel is broken that will bring pain or to the very least discomfort to our being. How dare we? Often times, what ends up happening is the very thing we become absorbed in fighting against is the very thing that consumes us and that draws us away from the Lord. He whose life is set on opposing the religious spirit will actually operate in the religious spirit, because that is its prize and its reward. It is no longer the man who crushes the religious spirit, it is the religious spirit itself. If in my journey to intercede and to bring forth life for another I become obsessed with the very thing I come against and seize to stand on the Word, but rather my own dislike for this thing, I have become a resounding cymbal. May my heart's desire be solely set on the man Jesus. In all His glory, truth, righteousness and humility, may my heart be transformed into His image...